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I ve decided to write this entire entry with my eyes closed , literaly.
simply necuase i feel like if i look at what im saying it wont come out
right. it will ne politiacally correct. and thats not what i want.
Im listening to miles davis - it never entered my mind - and its on so
loud that i can hear it in my heart. And a huge part of me -
wants to just fall into a hole in the ground. only because of how alone
one can feel at times., no matter how full your life may be with work
and things of rhat nature - the fact remains that we are at large,
really really lonely. and that i am. I see my close friends wtih thier
boyfreinds - and think huh i want that -0 but i want MY that. i want to
be with someone who inderstands me os well that he doesnt mind taking
the risk of - of - tpying with his eyes
shut.... just coz he knows he can., i want to be with someone who will
play miles davis when i get home from work , and will have a glass of
wine with me, or will let me be or will ho.,d me close when im feeling
alone. or would tink higly of me on some level.
i want htat - i want an auntium evening with white wine and jazz - or even better a rainy one.
the theing is i dont know if i have a right to be lonely - i have great friends and a fab family and dog!
so guess im fine.
yeah
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| I really dont know where to start. You know when things happen and at
that point they just dont seem that harmful? then of course time
elapses and you realise the error of your ways... TADAAAA!!!!
I really want to move out of town for a while. Scared as hell as i am of doing it I really think i should.
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| 'the book of love is long and boring- no one can lift the damn thing'
As i sat and listened to this song - that would have potentially
reduced me to a pile of blubbering butter, I realised something.
Im not sad anymore- im not even subconsciously hopeful of a false-ness.
That which was - that which would have reduced me to that pile... is no
longer .... there.
Instead, it made me smile - to think of being with You.
And for that - even if you dont understand it - I thank You.
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| Its about lifestlye, its about waking up and doing with your day what
you see fit. What you makes you feel as though you are LIVING. Be
it the fact that you can walk to work on a slightly chilly morning, or
drizzly. Be it the fact that a bottle of light wine will be had at
every meal. Be it the fact that eating is not as much a necessity as it
is a pleasure. Be it waking up early and having some time to potter
around. Having amazing coffee and bits of toast for breakfast and then
walking the whole day. Or going to the gym for two hours. Or popping in
for a bit of shopping at lunch. Eating a lovely plate of sushi while
you read your book. And then back out for a walk elsewhere.Be it the
fact that your favorite shoes wont be destroyed if you wear them out of
your house. Or that you can walk home happily after a glorious dinner.
Whatever you see fit. Its about lifestyle.
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| just did a test to see what is a good job for me - some are hysterical! especially the order!!!!!!!!!!!!
Your Results:
Your prediction for your #1 result: Homeless. Does that match your actual #1 result below?
Your Results The list below is modified by your input. Note: The selector author alone determined the questions and scoring of these results.
Rank
#1 equals your best match
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Item
Default order is alphabetical
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| #1 | Babysitter
| | #2 | Actress
| | #3 | Artist
| | #4 | President
| | #5 | Singer
| | #6 | Teacher
| | #7 | Dancer
| | #8 | Doctor
| | #9 | Investigator
| | #10 | Kindergarten Teacher
| | #11 | Math teacher
| | #12 | Vet
| | #13 | Gold digger
| | #14 | World Domination man
| | #15 | traveller
| | #16 | Analyst
| | #17 | CSI
| | #18 | Computer Technician
| | #19 | Like Monk
| | #20 | Waitress
| | #21 | Funeral Director
| | #22 | Gardener
| | #23 | Plumber
| | #24 | Homeless
| | #25 | Shadow minister
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